[Sunday September 4th, 2005 1:45am]  Love. Who even invented that powerful word? Who knows how to define love? Most of us don't. And I didn't just like every other teenager until one day, the day that I met you. I knew from that day, that my outlook on the word love had changed forever. Something was there between us, something very special. But even that day, I never knew just how special it was. I never expected such strong feelings for you, so strong that I can't even find the words to begin to describe it. Especially in such a short amount of time. We haven't even been together a month. But yet, my feelings for you surpass any other feelings that I have ever had. For once I don't wonder what like would be like some where else with someone else. For once I am content with my life right where it is, because there is no where I would rather be than right here sharing my love with you. If there is one thing that I wish for in my life, it is that what we share between us never ends. What we share and what we have is to special to let go or to lose. Joshua Edwin Halbrooks, I love you. (3) LOVE ME | DO YOU LOVE ME?

Oh wow. [Thursday September 1st, 2005 1:20am] ♥ Amazing day today because of you. I don't think guys really understand the way the girls minds work. Like today, I don't think Josh understood just how special it was and how much it meant to me even though we didn't do anything at all. It has to be one of the better days that him and I have had. And it just meant so much to me. Playing video games together, that seriously made my night. We just sat there and goofed off while playing Jeopardy. And it meant the world to me. Just sitting there doing nothing and laughing our asses off together. It was so cute. I can't even explain it. And then sitting outside on the swing with you, even though we do it like everytime you come over here and we are alone, it still means so much because that is when we actually talk wether it serious, stupid or funny, that is when we actually take the time to talk to each other. And I guess that's what makes it so great. At least for me. I don't know how you feel about the time we spend together, but I would imagine you enjoy it. I don't know, I just put to much value to everything I guess. But it does mean the world to me, and I guess it is because I love you so much. ♥ Playing video games and laughing (nothing really at all, but it means the world to someone)   Oh and I made this blue just because I know it is your favorite color and I am in a sweet mood like that. =) DO YOU LOVE ME?

[Monday August 29th, 2005 4:26am] So today has most definitely been a day where I have just sat around and thought alot. Even when I was around other people and I was hanging out with them, half of the time I wasn't even listening to them and I was off in my own world thinking about other things. Except for when Josh was talking to me because I always listen to what he has to say ♥. I've realized a lot of things today and some of them kind of scare me, yet they make me happy at the same time. I guess I should start off with the most obvious topic...♥ Josh ♥ Things with Josh right now couldn't be any better. We have finally been getting a little bit of alone time to ourselves. And it is great, I think we have really needed it. Like today when he came over,it was so cute. We didn't even really do anything. We just basically sat around and talked to each other the whole time and it was absolutely amazing. We sat in the back yard and we were on the swing and he layed his head in my lap looking up at me and we just talked the whole time for like an hour and a half. It was amazing. Him and I have had some conversations that I really couldn't picture him having, but he does. And I swear everytime I talk to him something comes out of his mouth to amaze me. We were talking today about where I am going to be when I turn 20 and he told me I was going to be with him. It made me smile for a few minutes and then my brain started to kick in. I thought about all the other guys that would say things like that to me, and then they never worked out and look where I ended up. But then it occured to me, I never believed a guy when he talked to me, like i believe josh. I honestly think he means it when he tells me that he wants to be with me when I hit 20. =) And what scares me even more, I want to be with him when I hit 20. I want to share all the important moments in my life with him. All of them, the homecomings and proms, graduation. My 18th birthday, my wedding all of it. I haven't had feelings this strong for anyone since Tim. And my feelings for Tim weren't even this strong. I knew he and I never had a future because of the way he was, so I never built myself up for it. I have bulit myself up to having those feelings for Josh. And I am loving every minute of it. Joshua, I know you are going to read this baby, and I just want you to know, that I love you with all my heart. No one could even compare to you and I wouldn't trade you for anything in this world. Every day with you is an adventure, I don't know whats going to happen or where I am going to end up because you always surprise me. Even without you trying you still manage to and I don't think you realize just how much you do. If I could find the words to explain it all to you, I would. But honestly for feelings as strong as I have, I don't think there are any words to be able to explain it. Except for the three most obvious ones..I love you. DO YOU LOVE ME?

All about my baby.. [Monday August 29th, 2005 2:31am] ♥The kisses on the forehead ♥ The pointless conversations ♥ The random I love you's. ♥ The sweet little things you say ♥ The emotion that you're not afraid to show ♥ The little things you do to surprise me ♥ The way you do something for me when I say I should do it. ♥ The way you make me smile and laugh all the time ♥ The way that I have fallen in love with you... Those are all the things that make our relationship so amazing. And those things make me realize that there isn't anyone else that I would rather be sharing my life with. =) When I'm with you it's nothing but happiness. And that is something not most people can make me do. And the way you amaze me, it never fails to remind me of how much I love you. ♥ I ♥ Josh (2) LOVE ME | DO YOU LOVE ME?

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